12/11/13
EPISODE # 2


I LIVED A DOUBLE LIFE. I HAD A SECRET IDENTITY.NO, I WASN'T BATMAN, SUPERMAN
OR THE GREEN HORNET.DURING WORKING HOURS I  WAS R J LAMB, MILD MANNERED,
LOYAL, HARD WORKING BANKER. AT NIGHT, ON PAYDAY, I WAS A DRUG FIEND;
DRINKING, SMOKING AND DRUGGING TILL THE MONEY RAN OUT; ROAMING THE STREETS FROM  "SPOT" TO  "SPOT" LOOKING FOR CRACK AND  FEMALE COMPANY.

SURE, I CAN JOKE ABOUT IT NOW, BUT I SPENT SOOO MANY DAYS AND NIGHTS IN
MISERY, DEPRESSED AND LONELY, HATING MYSELF, POWERLESS TO CHANGE, TO
BREAK THE BONDS OF ADDICTION. SADLY, YEARS PASSED; DECADES. SEE, THE  FUNDAMENTAL PROBLEM WAS AND IS THE ILLUSION OF CONTROL. AS LONG
AS THE PERSON THINKS THAT HE OR SHE IS IN CONTROL, HE OR SHE WILL KEEP
GETTING HIGH. AS LONG AS THE BILLS ARE PAID AND FOODS ON THE TABLE, IT'S
ALL GOOD!!

THEN ONE DAY YOUR MONEY IS SHORT...BUT YOU STILL GOTTA GET HIGH, CAUSE
YOU EARNED IT, YOU WANT IT, YOU DESERVE IT!! YOU AIN'T HURTIN NOBODY
(BUT YOURSELF). THAT IS THE HUNGER GROWING, OVERRULING LOGIC AND
COMMON SENSE.